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[If Dandy wanted to spend his days moping alone without even so much as a check-in from someone, he shouldn't have made friends with compassionate girls.

...Especially not one who is also a mermaid, and who he's already told is important to him. Maya can stand to give Dandy a little time alone, but after everything that's happened, eventually finds herself looking for him again in Lake Dala's deeper waters.

When she finds him, she calls out with that watery warbling under her voice, though her swimming slows and becomes almost hesitant.]

Dandy?

Hey. What's up?

[Dandy can't even find the words to express how he's feeling right now. It's like there's a gross, nasty lump sitting inside the pit of his stomach, a mix of all the grief and shame and disappointment, stuff that's been building for some time now that's only suddenly quadrupled in size thanks to the events of last week. He's utterly disgusted with himself and he can't figure out a way to make himself feel clean again.

And he hates it.

Dandy was always the kind of person who believed that to live the best possible life, you need to go with the flow. ...But what the hell do you do when you feel like the flow has betrayed you? Before it was like he had absolute freedom, his morals never clashed with his way of life because the flow always went in the direction he wanted.

But Ryslig makes it so hard, and a part of him knows he has to throw out that philosophy at this point. If he just sat back and embraced everything that happens, then he would've been an unstoppable murder machine both in and out of the fog on day one and he just can't...

...Maybe his other philosophy will have to take over. Live however makes you feel good.

Well, he certainly doesn't feel good now. It's almost amazing how the more dedicated Foggies keep telling him that being here is the ultimate freedom, he's never felt more trapped. And after what he did, he's not sure he could ever feel happy again.

Or at least that's how it feels, until he hears Maya's voice through the water. Dandy lies on his stomach, head rested on his arms as he relaxes on a rocky surface. There's a faint glow from his markings and his longer hair drifts around him, obscuring some of his face. Kind of like his fog form...

He doesn't look at her or anything, but at least he isn't that much of a sulky shit to ignore her completely.]

Nothin'.

[Just having an existential crisis.]

I'll catch you guys later... Just make sure Makoto doesn't eat everything.

Are you sure?

[Now that she's not exactly sneaking up on him, Maya drifts along until she's near enough to touch, though she doesn't reach out just yet.]

I can stay with you.

[She offers, 'laying' next to him alongside his rocky perch but still drifting in the water herself, ghost-glowing belly up and inky black hair cascading down.]

...We don't even have to talk. Or.. I could talk, if you don't wanna talk.

[But then, very seriously, browspots knit together, she adds--]

Or I could go, if you really want.

[Oh...that kills the man. Even though Dandy's first reaction is to push away, for some reason hearing her asking to go along with it just really yanks at him in a way he didn't expect. Like the tone of her voice pulls him back into reality.

Oh yeah, that's right, he has people who care about him.

He doesn't answer, but he makes his choice clear, grabbing her arm and wrapping his around it like she's some kind of security blanket. Sometimes he forgets he doesn't have to be alone anymore...

When is he going to get that through his stupid head.]

[That's more like it. Maya's a bit surprised but altogether appreciative that Dandy accepts the invitation; it's not like all of this hasn't been on her own mind as well. There's no way she was going to be able to ignore the whole debacle at all, but then she'd gone and gotten herself involved and reminded of how awful all of this eating stuff is, and, well. She's a little eager to rest her head on his shoulder in their strange otter-like half-hug.

Dandy isn't the only one who forgets he doesn't have to be sad alone.

But with the reminder so present in their unspoken promise not to abandon the other there in their wallowing, Maya takes the moment to stare into oddly bent pools of dim light in the distance of the water instead of speaking for a while. And then despite not really needing to there, under water, out of habit she breathes in and on the breath out hums a little bit of those strange orca noises when she says--]

I'm sorry. This planet sucks.

[Dandy winces at her words, but not in a bad way, if that's even possible. Hearing someone else say that out loud...is comforting in a way that shocks him. He's so used to people arguing with him, he...needed to hear that.

Especially because he knows he's going to be arguing a lot in the future, he just needs to know he's not crazy.

His hand squeezes around her arm, letting her know the appreciation's there. If he had things his way, they'd just be lying like this forever. Man, he misses when he had things his way...]

I don't think I'm goin' into Bavan anytime soon. [His voice is raspy.] You think you can put up with that?

["Will you be willing to run to the store for me" basically. But he can't do it, just the thought of showing his face there builds the guilt in his stomach. He can't imagine how he'd be if he actually set foot in there.

Would they recognize him?

Would they run?

Dandy always loved the idea of people fearing him, but like...as a cool tough guy. Not like this, for once he actually feels like a monster.]

Yeah. I told you, I can get there myself.

[She leans closer, kisses his temple, and pats his shoulder with her free hand.]

Aaaand if you need anything, I'm always up for playing delivery girl.

[It's the least she can do-- hell, it's the most she can do, being so powerless against their keepers. But now isn't the time to focus on that.]

[Oh.

This is nice.

This is, like...really nice. Does he deserve it? He doesn't...feel like he deserves it, but it doesn't stop him from rolling over so his head's facing her now. He's down for a good snuggle right about now.]

I could, like...use a pizza right about now...

[AN ACTUAL CHILD.]

Right now?

[Maya laughs in response, a bit surprised--]

Oh no, that sounds so good though... You have the worst timing.

[That's not a no, though.]

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